Tuesday, November 28, 2017

I knew it was due

i just got home after dropping $3000 on the video BJ machine. now lets try to look at the good side of things. nobody of course ever came by to sit, here in deadwood if u lose its not due to the fault of other players. its just bad luck.

i had $21,107 when i left my room, and $18,200 when i returned. but here is the proper way to look at things. when i left vegas i had $16,900 and arrived with $16,800 in deadwood. then i went and collected my free play in the silverado.

after doing so i had $18,200 on me that evening. i think i won some playing poker that day too, but not too much. so im not one dime worse off than i was after id picked that up.

and yet ive accomplished all of this. (truth is, id won close to $4000 on that VBJ before i lost). i paid my rent thru dec 20. i sent my family their christmas gifts. i ordered both a birth certificate and a consuelar report of birth. i've got to fix it so i can play online poker from my room though, its boring as hell when theres no poker, and i keep wanting to sleep between 5pm to 11pm when theres more likely to be games.

i dont think i should be upset i came here, ive done some things which need done, but i know i cannot drop another big chunk. got to bet less. once i got stuck well over $500 i started betting more than i shouldve before i shouldve. the last $1000 was lost playing without patience to wait. its really bugging me the lack of poker games in this town except 3-12 pm wed-saturday.

Monday, November 27, 2017

been working hard since theyres nothing else to do.

Well theres not much to do in this town since theyres so little live poker in the winter, except for mondays, wednesdays, thursdays, fridays and saturdays. u wont find games sundays or tuesdays, and u might not on mondays. So ive been spending my time on the BJ machine, where im up about $3000 since coming here. almost took a huge loss this morning of over $1000 but i recovered.

and since i cant "work" i might as  well put my vacation here to good use. the birth certificate i ordered which let me do it over the internet they called me about this morning. i should get it within 2 weeks since i paid a bunch of extra money for expedited service. then i went to the library to use their computer printer since ive got none and filled out the info for the replacement of the conseular report of birth abroad, which since it takes 4-6 weeks for processing is being sent to Rays house. i wrote out a $50 money order at the post office to the department of state after taking it to a notary public after i filled out my info and signed it in the library. lets hope they find it so i dont need the long complicated N-600 form which costs $600. i hope my mother was honest about the fact she registered me that night.

then i got a cashiers check for $1500 at a different bank than BOA since theres none here, and deposited it in my BOA account by cell with her help in taking the picture and scanning it. i will be saving the check a week then will be totally destroying it so it cant be found. BOA says to do this. i now see it as "processing" in my online bank statement.

then i opened up a bank account for $3000. i didnt think i would have enough ID, but she told me what i had was enough and she opened up an account, gave me temporary debit card, and ill get the permanent one in a week. i did make sure the manager would keep an eye on incoming mail since so many important things are enroute.

so ive got over $4500 less on me than i did, so now i wont be carrying nearly as much cash, giving me a lot more peace of mind. hopefully i wont take any huge losses where ill need to begin withdrawing it. ive not had any losses yet on it except for close to $200. every time i got stuck quite a bit more, i got it back. im overdue to lose.

then i found out today how housekeeping works, and where to throw out the garbage in which dumpster. not sure yet where to have alyisa send the books. if i stayed here longer i know of 2 motels not as good options due to location further out for $500 per month which is a bit less.

glad that im still over $20,600 even with all this done. remember, after i claimed the $1400 in free slot play, i still only had $18,200. this was before i paid the months rent too. so u can see what ive won on the VBJ. ive won far less than $200 at poker and seldom got to play

Thursday, November 23, 2017

new residence

lets see if i can successfully transfer the pictures on my cell phone to here of my new residence in south dakota, good thru dec 20th. for $700 plus tax $819 total. not too bad of a place. 

u see a large sized fridge, a kitchen, (no stove) but a microwave, a sink, plus dishes furnished, etc. and some kitchen supplies. the wifi works far better than i expected it to. plus u see a nice bathroom with some beautiful looking green towels included. its in an old building close to downtown deadwood, and she is only letting me rent it for one month, because if i continued to stay longer over new years eve weekend, the price would be over $400 higher the following month. 

it took me close to 2 hours to figure out how to download the pictures from my cell and i still dont know what i did right, so i still wont be able to in the future. still looking for someone to teach me how in person. even if i need to hire them. since i did post these photos, its now messing up all edit copy from here on out centering everything from the middle. im glad theres such warm bedding and a space heater for cold nights id need to learn how to plug in. 

the good news is after paying for all this, im still left with $19,300 this is due to winning over $1500 on the machines here so far and/or the live poker. plus of course the $1400 free play. 

why did i do it when the poker sucks here? well u got to remember im old. i didnt feel like getting on another plane, didnt feel like riding a cab into rapid city for $105 (lot easier to get lyft from rapid city than to rapid city) and just wanted a cheap decent place to live, where im away from people most of the time. mostly all white people living here who hate democrats. not seen 1 asian dealer. plus i can play some VBJ totally with no one else playing. most think i did well on finding housing. the only problem is my bank is over 300 miles out, closer location to me is denver.

i need someone i could trust to either give $1000-2000 to in currency in person who would in exchange send it to me on paypal (who id give it to upfront in person, which isnt possible, id get scammed). but i need it sent to my bank. i dont have any checks and its difficult to scan them to deposit. or someone who i could hand cash to and they transfer it to my bank. there is no one i know here i could trust with so much money. i tried to buy a paypal debit, thinking this would transfer to my bank, but it wont work to put it in your paypal so now im out $500 and can only buy things with it. if there were a 7-11 store here or CVS or rite aid theres a way to get money into your paypal which could be sent to the bank but none of these stores exist here. but if i only had documents instead of just one state ID with no secondary ID (not even a ss card which i doubt theres a local office) i could open a bank account in wells fargo to lock it up and withdraw it in another wells fargo after i depart.

wonder what i should try to do during the month im here, which wont need more than one month to arrive. 

Monday, November 20, 2017

a free $1400, courtesy of @john_mehaffey on twitter

this title could be just as misleading as other titles, but without him telling me about a new dealers angels machine here in Deadwood, id never known of its existence. i found out some bad news today though. its not in the main casino, but in the hotel across the street and its closed between midnight to 8 except for weekends. plus it does not show the shuffle point, and theres a message claiming all cards will not be active on this machine. plus i forgot the $100 max bet limit in deadwood. so u cant bet $100 on u, then back bet $100 each on everyone else. its only $100 TOTAL. so its much lower size betting than at hoover dam.

i was told by him for sure the craps gives comps and points and a friend of his was there playing it. but theres the same sign on the craps that it dont take a card. i think they must of burned out the promotion so much like they did in another deadwood casino in the past they banned players cards. i got here too late. why did the one in ellis isle last so long before it got removed? it was a better promotion.

essentially the machine isnt worth playing, which is a shame considering how CHEAP good motels are in this town over the winter. and if it took a card, theres a great promotion which is probably the one they did. for 20,000 points during the month, u get $1000 cashback. no wonder they were getting their points. sad thing is nothing else is worth it to get the points the VP in this town sucks.

now i did play some VP today in the silverado. it was the $1 7-5 jacks or better. and it was the best machine i could find in the silverado. (the roulette didnt work for free play). i simply flat hit max bet til my entire $1400 in free play was used up. cashed out $1295.

i never wouldve came here were it not for John_mehaffey. why did i have so much free play i never knew about? well i was told when i left the time before when i called Jason the night shift guy over the phone i was still getting my $350 weekly free play but this was over a yr ago. he told me sometimes they renew the offer if u arent here in some time. so i talked to the promotions manager elena and she looked in the computer and told me over 1 yr ago they downloaded it onto my card. so instead of needing to be here every week, i got to use the whole $1400 free play today. i certainly wasnt expecting this, so it kept this from being a worthless trip for nothing. i really appreciated her renewing my free play since it had expired.

there is only 1 machine worth playing in all of deadwood which is beatable over the longterm. and its not the dealers angels machine, but a different machine in a different casino which also gives no comps. its probably the last of its kind in the USA.

i wonder how much they burned out the video craps for it to not give points. it sure used to from what id been told by him. somehow this effected the VBJ too and got it to shut off points though they werent playing it even.

i told Benny this to be nice but he wasnt so nice in his text asking me why i called him a liar and said that was insulting him, but stacey will post that he did lie and he never said to benny i was unbanned. lets take a poll too on whether his ex in reno would really offer to let me live there and tell him that if all goes as she hoped we would be sharing the same bed. Benny is weird because of his autism just like me and just like i say inappropriate things, he says them because he thinks theyre funny. like he thought if i went to jean for nothing it wouldve been funny.

im shocked how inexpensive my room here is. springhill suites in other places around the country is like $79-129 per night. here its $39 weekdays much more weekends and that includes $15 free play per day and a free $15 entry into the 1pm tourney. of course the tourney did me no good, i missed the money. close to half seems to go for the house or the staff. and u do get short quickly. im now waiting for the cash game to go.

i truly miss having a home where i can both walk to my room every night and afford to pay the fee. anyone could stay in a $5000 per month hotel if they were rich. but few are this cheap. but there needs to be beatable games too. too bad i dont have proof im no longer in NV or i could play on ignition here. same with acr, if someone could help with document approval.

considering nothing here is worth playing except 1 machine, and not much poker, i think this week ill catch the flight to phoenix but its very high priced due to thanksgiving. would be much less if i waited. i need to settle somewhere so i can get my books once more. ac is storing them.

Sunday, November 19, 2017

how life is different when born with forms of autism

Ok, im over 1000 miles outside of vegas now, relaxing in a nice hotel room which is paid up for 3 days at a pretty low price. nice room too. and yes, they have lyft here. spent quite a bit using it tonight.

still got $16,800 and i hope this is enough to not go broke until i eventually end up living in Rays house to shut down all expenses.

to say something should be burned down is a whole lot different than saying u are going to burn something down. lots of people say things like this on twitter every day if theyre referring to conservatives, or to white people. im picked on because im not on the side most of the left is on. Madonna said she thinks a lot about blowing up the white house hows that less offensive? But to be honest i never said this. i have a history of at times claiming or implying i did something i didnt just because i get so pissed off i dont care and want to shock everyone in the blog. i like to see whose inclined to believe the worst about somebody. i want to know who will think someone will do something bad just because they confess instead of saying you couldnt have done this. i guess what causes this is my autism, benny often lies too. he told me stacey told him my bans been lifted. he told me one of his previous girlfriends in reno offered to let me live there and share the same bed.

i will take a lie detector test with anyone for a sizeable bet within my means of course and pass it. surveillance videos would show me not checking out of the hotel til sometime between 10.30 and 11am this morning, lugging 2 suitcases out of the elevator. when i return to vegas someday, anyone is welcome to come sit in a live BJ game in the golden gate, i will not have a problem sitting down.

i went to the nugget to sit, no open seats with huge list, so i took the bus to the terminal, switched to the MD park bus, got off on charleston, bought a used coat plus one more pair of pants, then went to the airport. and i left the state.

yes i need the time away from people and a break, but it wasnt because i was banned. i do need time to heal emotionally all the hurts i carry inside, wish people could be compassionate of the pain i feel. i need to get much closer to God, which most of u dont think exists. i need to feel his love before i can love others. i dont feel it since im so stressed. my moms favorite bible verse is how God will supply all your needs if u trust in him. i feel im the only one responsible for providing for my needs, and ive never felt it right the govt will provide for hers or my sons or old people in general. she wants me on the govt. i feel its wrong to not earn it by gambling.

i dont think God provides nothing for her, its the govt.

i feel that im one of the least racist people around and Martin Luther Kings niece feels this way too, which is why she follows me on twitter. u know what is racist? its using your race to get special treatment and privledges. Think of OJ, mike tyson, kobe bryant. all who couldnt be convicted after commiting serious felonies. guess what they all have in common?

its when a black guy doesnt feel a black women is good enough, and is inferior to a white women so he has to have a white girlfriend. see, hes being racist.

its when blacks cant get hired as dealers, whites i know who desperately need another dealing job cant get hired as dealers, but asians can who dont even know how to communicate with their clients.

thats real racism. what i say isnt racism. only a fool would think it so.

yes i lost quite a bit in the golden gate. yes i inflated the loss, embellished the amount, embellished what i said, because i thought if i didnt say this, who would believe i got thrown out if i didnt do nothing. i did however tell a dealer when the new guy asked how i was doing i could care less if he died in an accident. but the truth was he was white. we will go in the golden gate together sometime, he might remember it. i never mentioned his mother, the rest of the blog was all embellishment. same as when i said once about sex for $2 to buy a cheeseburger with. lots of assholes believed that lie too.

i just discovered that ive got $15 in free play every night i stay here in the hotel, so i went downstairs before midnite to claim todays money. plus ive got free entry into a poker tourney tomorrow if i want it.

and then i get into it with the person running the gift shop because theres no price on the merchandise which she claims there is and i proved there isnt. of course we know why, its because its way too much so of course they dont want to put the price on it. i think theyre rude for not listing the price and she mightve thought i was rude for telling her what i thought of it. most of what i do i dont consider rude, otherwise i wouldnt do it. but i certainly think others are rude when they ask certain things of me, or at least incredibly nosy when i just want peace.

think is because your mind works differently with autism and its why its so difficult for those with it to be accepted socially or especially to ever have a girlfriend. my Uber rating is down to 4.44 probably due to never wishing to answer questions. lots of drivers get incredibly hostile if u dont let them make their little speech while they try to determine if they can take advantage of u, and hate to be called out on it.

worries about my health cause great stress ive not been able to get a checkup in years, i think i ruined my kidneys never seeing a doctor who could fix the fact i could only urinate in small amounts way too often, and until im over $50k i dont see how i could. im always needing the money, shelter transportation and my citizenship matter more. when u consider the fact of 6 months of living expenses must be set aside besides your poker bankroll, this reduces my roll from $16k to $4k, so i feel ive got nothing.

i wish i could disappear off the net to be honest, though id like to become a success story first. im much better in person than i appear online, id never say things in person i say online. id still like to know if id win on BJ if i quit betting way too over kelly when im losing. i feel also i dont bet near enough if im winning, because i feel blowing a loss. on a good count u are not supposed to quit til the count turns bad. even if u are still up 6 big max bet units when u were up 18 units. but u sure want to bet much less the last few hands so u dont blow the huge win.

why its so difficult for me to change

sad to admit, when i left the golden gate, i really was only down $1700 and i decided to go out to hoover dam lodge one last time instead of the strip to play BJ. i've won there almost every trip out there $500 or more. and a few hours after i was there, id had back all but $125 of what i was down for the night. then suddenly everything went wrong, and by the time i took the Uber back downtown and spent the rest of the night playing poker in the nugget, i really was down $3500. all because i couldnt quit while only down $125. then i lost over $200 in the poker room too, but in there i played pretty good, took a bad beat on the final hand when he hits the flush on the river. most of the time i was stuck very little in the poker room.

i went ahead and booked my plane ticket its leaving this afternoon and its nonrefundable of course. plus i booked 3 nights hotel for another $144 in the springhill suites. (not a bad hotel for this low of price). most would be much higher priced.

on the way to the airport ill need my uber driver to stop in the thrift store so i can buy me 1 more pair of used pants plus a coat or ill freeze.

its very difficult to not get incredibly angry at those who go out to the casinos to have a good time when u are unable to emphasize with that and relate to it because u never get to yourself because if u dont spend 100% of the time u are in there working instead of playing u wont be able to survive. $10 isnt much of an hourly rate and i sure miss the $20 per hour of some previous years. been living off previous winnings for some time now. if people were in my situation (some in vegas grinding away close to being broke are) theyd understand more why i get so mad at the lucky privledged few who dont sweat if they win or lose. nor bother to learn the correct way to win the easiest.

to relive stress, some people have a good woman in their lives they go home to every night. someone they know loves them and accepts them unconditionally (only if theyre black) and others dont have one because they dont drink, dont smoke weed, dont get high on meth, so women see them as killjoys and bigots who are no fun. especially if u dont know how to drive, are unable to learn how, and must stress over bills continually. and of course have a disability which makes u unable to socially relate to other people.

70 yrs ago (before world war 2) women cared more about mens feelings and accepted them as they are. my mom considers homosexuality one of the worst of sins just like God does and believed a womans place is in the home if she is married. she never once dated after my father died when i was 1, but of course then she worked a job to survive from time to time. plus got welfare and food stamps at times. mostly had to work though. but she wouldnt if she were married. a woman is supposed to be there for whatever her husband needs. if u read the Bible u will see what a blessing a wife is and what she is to be like.

nowdays if u dont support queer rights, u arent accepted in this world. it wasnt enough to want to get married, now that they have this, they want to force others who dont approve of their sinful life to participate in their weddings or be sued and lose their jobs and businesses. they bully people mercilessly, including me every time i ran away from home and hitchhiked by insisting i let them blow me. then others become homosexual as an adult because they were molested as a child. no gay people want someone over 18. all the gay men i ever met only wanted me if i were 15-19. no one since. but its only women who feel this way about homosexuality. many men still dont like it and its why men hide it while women want the entire world to know when theyre gay and they show it off by trying to be physically unattractive to men.

the problem is u cant risk the penalties of changing your beliefs. for if u do the Bible makes it clear u will spend eternity in hell. Its too bad God cares so much more about your sex life than how u get along with others. for if u try to get along with others, they wont accept u unless u give in and say God didnt mean what he said about gay sex being a wicked evil. but he is so focused on who u have sex with, u will end up like me without ever being with anyone and unable to physically no more due to poor health, but still wish u had someone to hug u kiss u and tell u they loved u and hold u close every night. knowing u will never get this because u wasted 20 yrs of your life and are now too old for the only women who have no issues or baggage but are way too far left. its no wonder Roy Moore preferred women much younger than him.

i will be so glad to no longer be in vegas for i do need a vacation away from here. i knew i wouldnt win forever in the golden gate, and im tired of high priced housing. and Uber fees too. no more paying $800 or so per month with Uber. i wish i could find me a normal landlord so id have far more towns i could settle down in long as a poker game exists.. but i cant trust anyone enough to not have me setup and murdered to tell them ive got over $16,000 in the bank still. (was alot more). if u let a random guy renting his house off the net know this, u are risking your life if u arent able to fight. and to think u might not be able to pay so they wont rent to u? this is laughable, for the only people who cant pay or wont pay their rent are those who are broke. not those with close to 6-12 months income in their checking account at all times.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

well i guess i wont be playing no more BJ in the golden gate downtown vegas, not after losing $3000

i woke up tonight in my room in the golden gate and decided to play some BJ (since the room is free, it is kind of rude and looks bad to the host who gave it to me if i dont play or play too low of stakes). and i wish id went by the bank of america and deposited cash on me so id been carrying less like i originally was going to yesterday. but being i had no coffee in the room (ive never understood or bothered to learn how to use the in room coffeemaker in most hotels) or no more bottles of water, i decided now would be a good time to sit so id get served quickly.

the first waitress told me she was only dropping off the order of the one older lady sitting alone (not counting me) on my table and goes home at 6pm, so the other girl would get my order. i decided to sit out on every running count of minus 1 or lower until i got a chance to order, so i wouldnt get heavily stuck while waiting on my drinks. not that this really helps since the bets in plus counts are so much bigger.

i'd only sat there instead of going straight to the nugget poker room so i could get free drinks very quickly. the BJ tables are usually where u get priority service.

the only good news to report is when the new girl came on 15 minutes later, right as i was getting ready to figure out which person would listen to a complaint and have the power to do something, (rare) she actually brought the drink with her since the other girl happened to tell her. so i was relieved i didnt have to order and then wait for her return. so i gave her $2 instead of $1. i felt she deserved it.

so i came across a good count (the running count hit +7 and increased from there deep enough into the shoe to bring the true count over +1) and started raising the bets. a hand of $19. (from $5 min). 2 spots of $20. 2 spots of $45. 2 spots of $100. and i kept losing every single hand. i sat out (even being the only player) if someone stood where they could watch if i won or not, saying i was superstitious about others watching me lose every penny i have to my name. when they walked on (or sat and placed a bet instead of just watched) i then got back in, i wasnt about to leave while stuck until the good count disappeared.

some of the hands i lost doubles or splits so i wasnt exactly doubling bets, sometimes i needed to go to 3x the bets or so. plus sometimes added on. 2 new guys sat (was by myself most of the time) seeing i was explaining to people i was losing my ass and would rather be alone. but its hard to reason with drunks who dont give a fuck about u or how ur feeling and what makes u happy all they want is to sit and bet $5 and to not do it at any other table than the one u are losing on. alcohol, just like drugs, should be illegal.

i lost 2 spots of $235, with a double, then 2 spots of $450. i was asked by 2 new guys (who didnt see the losses) how i was doing and if i minded them sitting and i told them exactly what i was thinking. dont ask if u dont wish to know. i told them i could care less if the dealer and his mother died in a serious car accident and i hoped they went broke, became homeless and lost everything they had because if it happened to me it should to them too. i told them how i felt about them hiring dealers who werent white and are foreignors and how it should be illegal cause its racist, because u shouldnt have to be asian to get hired. unfair to blacks, whites, etc and all non-asian peoples. i told them how my main goal was to make sure no one had a good time unless i was too, and how people should be executed for people watching and how rude it is, and especially if theyre just out to have a good time not caring how this would effect the others who take the game seriously. i told them how this casino should be burned to the ground and how i prayed it took place soon.

security honored my wish to leave before i lost the entire $4100 i left the room with, and they even assisted me in gathering up all my belongings in the room and escorting me off the premises so none of the others who mightve wanted to hit me did so. so there goes tonights free hotel room.

so tonight as i prepare to leave vegas and go back to toledo where i can start getting my life right with God so i wont be so angry and wont be playing no more BJ since its not low enough stakes there there is one thing i wish to do before i leave town and this is to play $2-5 nl in the wynn with a $1500 buyin. ive never played this high in the wynn, except for the time i got the $500 $5-10 stake many years ago which i lost. maybe since its night ill win, i only know id lose during morning day shift in $1-3 most of the time. maybe buying in deep ill win. ive stayed over $10,000 for around 2 yrs now and i hope ill still be over that during tomorrows flight or maybe early morning flight. so im going to get the strip bus. first i locked the bags up in another casino so i wont need to haul them with me.

some of u might think ill be better off never playing BJ in the golden gate no more anyway. but even with tonights huge loss, i still came out up in the long run. primarily due to over $7000 in wins in january.

Thursday, November 16, 2017

I folded pocket Queens

Lets talk about emotional issues and how they effect EVERYTHING to do with ones poker results. since everyone knows about my bad fold of QQ preflop in the poker kraut vlogger westgate game and video. video of me folding QQ go to the 9.35 mark

everyone on my twitter (and even my Uber driver on the way home was asking me about my fold there, since he follows different poker vloggers) and im well aware now it wasnt the best fold, but once im up for the day (a significant amount meaning well over $100) its hard to continue playing my best because i get paranoid ill destroy the entire nights profit. now if im behind, i dont fear losing the money (but i should) so then i get too much in a hurry to either make coin flips or win a big pot to get unstuck. people in my game would be able to win much more against me if they kept track of how much im up or down.

i did eventually leave the westgate Kraut game with over $200 profit, but i couldve done much better there. but the second i get scared of losing it back, i need to go, immediately. which is why i dont think others should object to those hitting and running. no one should feel forced to sit when they feel too uncomfortable to play their best anymore.

i totally forgot about how the 7-2 bounty would cause many opponents to make much looser preflop raises with this particular hand, simply because im not as used to playing in tables with this bounty than some of his vlog readers. to me, big raises and then much bigger reraises represent real hands preflop. bets in last position, or made too often, or on someones straddle, represent garbage to me, and then sometimes i lose money when it turns out to not be so.

tonight i let emotionally upsetting things at the table affect me too and im out over $1700 tonight when i returned home. my moral sensibilities were offended due to the sheer number of women who were queer in my table and especially how rich the biggest offender was who kept talking about things she spent the money on and what shes planning to do with it. but then again i won $40 in this game, but i did give back alot of the win. but i did get to where i couldnt listen to the conversations of traveling overseas (how they could afford it being retired) and how they were "more enlightened"

so i left bored, to go play BJ in the golden gate, where i usually win. and i lost so much my host came by and i got him to give me this fri and sat nite free of charge. so maybe ill take the sun plane out of town instead of the thurs one. i've got 3 nites ive never used in silver 7 too, but thats weekdays only. often days arent available and are sold out.

too many players in my BJ game werent playing correctly, (annoys me) the loud music with dancers (annoys me) the fact they give them dog collars with their names to wear about their neck offends my moral sensibilities (annoys me) people smoking nearby (annoys me) new guy sitting too close to me instead of over in the other empty chair since i was playing 2 spots with 2 empty chairs. (annoys me). he comes in i have 2 big bets out there because its a good count and i lost multiple prior hands in a row. $275 and $275 bets. he gets dealt A7, dealer has 9 showing theres like 4 of us playing, his first hand. he wont hit like he should, then i double down on my 92, and get the A which wouldve given him 19 instead of the soft 18 he has now. then i hit my 12, (on my other hand that is) and bust with the face card which wouldve given me 21 instead of 12 if he wouldve took the ace. so i ended up losing 3 bets of $275 then i quit pissed off. i swear no one could be this dumb. i think the house at times gives shills money to play to try to fix things so good players lose and get too mad to think clearly. people say u should give others the benefit of the doubt, which i do, i give them the benefit of the doubt theyre not that fucking retarded and just trying to make us lose on purpose. (why i get so mad)

then i returned to the nugget, down over $1200-1300. sit back in a different game buy a massage and lose over $500 within an hour, not all on one buyin. but i had to get the uber quite a bit early. i start talking to him and he mentions he knows me from poker, asks if i watch any vlogs, then i find out hes seen my QQ fold.

only thing i enjoyed was the massage the black girl gave me who isnt usually working in there and the good looking girl in my BJ table in the golden gate who was with some other girl. surprisingly enough, the girl by me knew the correct way to play, noticed her friends errors and played much better than her friend. too bad i couldnt convince her to come to the nugget poker room, but she wanted to go eat.. she left before the big loss. now these 2 women definitely werent gay she actually liked men instead of hating them and was much better looking. for a moment i almost thought it was cdizzy, who ive not heard from today, no idea if her plane arrived.

yesterday me and alysia chang played omaha in the orleans but first she met seattle irish in the nugget. i left before she did and took uber because she just wouldnt quit the omaha game for nothing, no matter how tired. but i did win in the game $83. i think she never got unstuck her $250. i really appreciate the big favor she did me of storing my 50 christian books i never had time to read near all before my upcoming checkout fri morning or thrus nite this week. (tomorrow) now i can feel free to take the bus or plane without wondering what would become of these books i paid $60 for. we drove thru mc d and she bought the food since i didnt have change for $100 and i will return it in comps in the future somewhere.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

poker in the nugget with the trooper plus BJ

well i havent played much but poker ever since i dropped down in the $15,000s. i guess thats one of the main reasons ive come back to just over $18,000. thank God i didnt have the big drop tonight, had too much in the game, but recovered my $460 earlier loss and eventually went home up $53 for the night.

the trooper was in my game for 2-3 hours earlier and hardly played a hand except for the poker grump 2-4 hand, where he flopped the wheel, and busted me when i shoved the nut flush draw. i expected 2 callers or more, but only he called. i thought id get better odds. i wasnt the preflop raiser and about 5 of us seen the flop for $12. i eventually quit the game down $460, long after he left. i caught myself making 2 really bad calls. i just couldnt quit with a loss, so i made the loss much bigger.

went to play some BJ, took $2500 out of the money behind the cage. seldom could raise my bet, so i bet quite low. never was down more than $500 nor up over $150. never saw any good plus counts except like 5 hands out of 200. i was just lucky in that i won a few key hands with doubles and splits. i wouldve won more were it not for my 45 minute massage at the table.

i was lucky in the golden gate too the day before. won over $150, and the other 3 off duty plaza dealers in the game were tipping so much the dealer colored up $150 in tips that hour too. there were like 10 of them off duty employees, most sitting in the bar. i dont think this bar has hookers. like the fremont bar, its just employees sitting.

but ive not played much BJ lately no more VBJ, or bitcoin BJ after those big losses. the only good VBJ in this area is so far outside boulder city its almost $40 to get there.

ive been using the bus more lately too, since uber isnt giving me discounts or lyft. and im doing a better job of waking up later, and going to sleep later.

when i returned to the $1-2 NL i brought the whole $2525 i left the BJ table with from my $2500 buyin. i eventually cashed out $3013. but i was down to $2250+ once. i won 2 key hands, one by sucking out. stole close to 3 smaller pots.

still wondering what will happen by nov 17 checkout, my time is rapidly running out. it will be quite difficult to be back over the $19,200 needed every time rent is up.