Gordon Lamb's Pussy

 everyone who knows me well knows i wont ever use an alarm clock, or to force myself to be awake by a certain time, (often describes why i check out of a hotel the night before check out and take a second one, so i can sleep undisturbed at check out time) so i wake up when i wake up. i just wish i can force myself to sleep when im tired, but everyone who does that uses alcohol or medications to do it, which of course i refuse to do. 

so when i went to sleep around noon i knew i wouldnt be waking up til 9pm or so not counting a few trips to the bathroom. actually i would have preferred to go to sleep about 4am, and wake up about 1pm, then i couldve played earlier in the day and then went to the Target store across the street from the cardroom to buy food on the way home before they closed at midnight. 

now if i go there after im done playing, ill have to stay til 7am in the morning and all i have left to eat in here is 5 hormel meals. i ate everything else because its almost dec 23rd. 

in the dream i had last night, which seemed to be consecutive everytime i went back to sleep, im in some building where i was staying and was going to sleep, but first im in a public shower area or bathroom and im asking a guy working there what this soap is called, and he says its Gordon Lambs pussy. Isnt he a famous football star or something? i know there was a dentist on twitter who used to troll me with that name. 

And then im walking into another room trying to leave and i see a bunch of food i want to eat and i cant wake up yet because not enough people have woken up and its not time yet. i had a lot more to tell u but ive forgotten the rest of the dream. 

anyway here is the final hand tonight right before i quit the game. and in the middle of the hand i told the guy i was going to have to quit if i folded this hand (primarily because i wonder if i am playing too tight because i have too many chips on the table). i was in the game for $250 and when i cashed out, i still had $454. 

i had AK suited and i hadnt played a hand in awhile (when i raised a $10 straddle and a $20 blind bet to $125 with 10 10 and they all folded. yes i know i am not supposed to show the hand, but i was so relieved to get no action and not have to worry about losing it all anymore). maybe im also not supposed to want all to fold, or am I? 

only 1 guy calls, and i dont know if he is any good, but being a young kid with headphones he could be a grinder. i think this is not his home casino though, i havent seen him all month. its possible he either went broke and rebought earlier or maybe he just moved seats i dont remember. 

i think my initial raise was to $27. primarily to rid myself of a green $25 chip which i hate, and a purple $2 chip, which i also hate. i like to have only a bunch of $5 and $1 chips on me. Plus i consider other players assholes and annoying when they remove all the chips from the game forcing the dealer to need a fill sooner when they tip $5 in small chips instead of a red chip, but people do this shit all the time. . flop comes AQ6 with 1 card of my suit. we both check. turn comes 9 i bet $30 and he raises to $75.

i did NOT want to lose my entire stack, but i feel im playing too tight, so thats why i said id have to leave if i fold. but i asked if he would show if i folded. he wouldnt respond to me, meaning he was serious and not there to be friendly and have fun. that pissed me off so i quit. what do u guys think he likely had?

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Psychologically, its very hard for me to not always ask for the other players to run it twice, even when the other players consider the pot small, and even more strange, my desire to do this, even when i need to double up so i can leave. i guess its because i cant help but always think i will lose the pot 100% of the time if i dont protect myself from running it twice. this fear has no basis, and its simply mental. but since i am losing so much money with the extra $2 or $3 they take per pot if u run it twice, starting yesterday i have finally quit asking people on the smaller sized pots in the NL games and only if they suggest it do i say sure. if i can break myself of this habit i might start winning more money and pay a little less of the enormous rakes and jackpot drops they have in Miami. 

they do this many places in south florida, and also at the MGM in detroit (charge u extra rake or jackpot drop if u run it twice). which other poker rooms in the US do this also that i dont know about?

my new life in Moscow

 this is an old post, written months ago, that i had decided NOT to publish. rest assured, me and Ray get along fine now, but at the time i was a little upset because i wasnt hearing back from him. ive had such horrible luck at casino magic and am upset with some of the employees and decided not to publish the blog i wanted to write but instead ill publish this just so i can update the blog. i only got 35k left now and i did have that back over 38k. and my airbnb ends in about 5 more days. not sure yet where ill go. i know its much cheaper to get a place for a month in Jacksonville, but i remember the NL games sucked and only the PLO was good. but at least im not around any machines. i cannot believe how much money i threw away on machines. i had over 60k when i came to florida. including over 1400 last night in the craps machine. every paragraph after this first one was written months ago. im wondering if i need to go back to playing PLO or if ill lose the whole last 30 if i do thats not very many 1000s and it could easily go to zero, just like bitcoin and xrp will do if i dont sell what tiny little bit i have left (under 2000 worth)

Well i dont remember when i last updated the blog, but after leaving Dallas due to losing over $1000 5 out of 8 sessions in the course of a couple weeks (which of course had never happened in my life before, i rarely ever lose $1000 because im not someone who often buys in deep). but Ray and I who had been sharing a hotel in dallas ever since he drove me back here from Chicago, left the city and went to Austin. 

and at first in the 2 weeks i stayed in Austin i was back on track to winning. in fact i made over 4000 in the 2 weeks, had 2 sessions of PLO where i made over 1000 each time. and also wins in NL which i was going to start playing more often because Ray said im better at it than PLO and because i was starting to question and second guess how i play PLO. 

i think the real reason i started losing at PLO in dallas though is the sheer number of asian players and euros and other overseas players living in texas for a few months all colluding and raising each others hands for them. thats how u can tell when cheating is going on, when 2 people both sit deep and quit at the same time and are the same ethicity. 

but the hotel which was a nice brand (home2suites) wasnt nearly as good as many other hotels with the same brand name ive stayed at in other cities, and i guess that was why the price wasnt bad but still about 200 a week more than the really shitty extended stay america and woodspring suites places around there. at least there were no bugs and i cant often say that for extended stay america. but the wifi wasnt great in the room at times, and the dishwasher was messed up at times and phone service wasnt the best it would drop calls in the middle of a conversation. 

the only good thing was that it was really close to TCH about a 2 mile ride up the street and a low Uber fare for all the times i rode there not with Ray. 

but for whatever reasons we left, primarily because i thought Ray preferred going to Houston instead of staying in Austin (turned out i was wrong, Ray thought it was ME who wanted to go to Houston) but i asked him the morning before if we should leave or renew the room and he said to leave. 

i wouldve rather gone to san antonio than houston but Ray was dead set against going to san antonio because he felt like there was nothing but NL there and not much PLO but i remembered the SA card house that Foster ran being a great room and easy to make money there. 

and i wasnt thinking about how every place in Houston with the lone exception of 1 of the TCH rooms here, uses the button straddle and make the small blind act first, which we all know i hate and is very bad for the game. id forgotten about that since i hadnt played in Houston in so long. i hadnt been back since the last covid case ended about 3 years prior, but Dustin kept telling me how great the promotions were in Houston, how time was cheaper there etc and suggested it. Imagine how surprised i was the day i walked into Champions and realized i still had an hours worth of time in my account. 

there are more places to play poker in all the different suburbs of Houston than Dallas or Austin but u would be surprised how many are really small and might have only 1 game

i remember when i left Houston i was getting tired of cardhouse managers greed and how every place was making the rake $10 or $15 instead of a reasonable amount like $7. Legends which had all the shootings and robberies does use $7 rake, i guess to get people in there but the asians i seen colluding like a motherfucker in there. 

I had been proud of how Ray was doing at poker, many times in Chicago he covered my PLO losses, although my bankroll had still declined by 30k in the past few months but a lot of that was on online blackjack losses. and of course some of it on hotel expenses. and the huge losses in PLO in dallas in a short period of time. and also i did repay his loss a few times but he was winning far more than me, in Detroit, Chicago, Dallas, etc. But Ray all did this off me loaning him $1000 and then getting it back early on and of course he added his monthly disability check to it also, but that leaves him very little after bills. remember hes still paying his rent in ohio of $250 a month, all the car expenses, etc. 

so that is quite an accomplishment doing this with no money. but Ray was getting very worried about his car. its got over 335k miles now and wont last forever. and he doesnt think it will make it home to toledo. but he said since hes got credit cards again now since its been so much time since his last bankruptcy he said he would be okay. 

although he sure wasnt acting like he would be okay he was worried sick about it getting mad at me every time he lost and blaming me for him driving me there or suggesting it over the place he thought about playing at and hes been doing this for a long time and i cant stand being around him with his attitude if he doesnt win. and he blames the dealers and says such awful stuff to them ive been thrown out of rooms for saying way less many years ago. 

he is so privledged compared to me. hes got free medical care and free dental care, and housing he will never lose because he only has to pay $250 in rent and the government pays the rest. Plus he has no mental health issues and is able to drive. and a car. and yet HE stresses out over money when im down one entire third of my life savings of 90k (only at 60k now) i am the ONLY one who should be worried about money. not him. 

he even says he knows a girl who lives in spring texas he plays yathzee with all the time whose husband is in prison for sex crimes he says if he ever needed it she would give him money and let him stay there. 

so i cant stand listening to his bitching at me when hes stuck 100 or 200 when i am out literally tens of thousands and i havent been winning at poker particularly PLO in quite some time and i know im not a bad player at PLO because of the year before when i was winnning 100-120k mostly in dallas. and mostly in PLO. 

i really dont know whats wrong with him, he used to do so much to act like a friend such as all the rides he gave me and money on the room and food. including the time at tch austin i thought i was having a stroke and the ambulance took me to seton hospital and i found out i had walking pneumonia in my lung. he was telling them that i was his best friend for 35 years. 

he feels i work him too much on driving me places but what am i to do? silly to pay for Uber when he is here with a car and he doesnt use good judgement on choosing where to play and when to quit and when to stay. i offered to buy him a car upfront when i still had the 90k with my money and he refused because he wanted to use his credit to get a more expensive car of like 10k or more with a dealer and he said there was no point in getting another car until this one gave out first. but he cant stop thinking about being completely broke without a way to get a car to drive back to ohio. and he also said he didnt want to take my money but i knew if i didnt pay that upfront i would end up losing so much money i wouldnt be able to help them so i wanted to right away before i lost it on blackjack like i knew i would. ive never been able to hold onto 90k

he is down to about 2000 left out of 5000 he had less than a week ago. 

i got annoyed when he wouldnt answer his email for over 24 hours and told me not to talk to him anymore til sunday when he leaves and wouldnt tell me how he lost his money or how much in Katy 101 poker. i think the rakes too high there so i mostly been playing elsewhere. i even offered to reimburse his loss somewhat like he did for me a few days earlier but he never responded back. and i didnt want to be around him when he came home

you see often he drinks to sleep and i dont want to be around someone if they are drinking. and for a while i thought he had cured himself of that habit. Vince said he had. 

i decided that now is a good time to use my exit strategy so i will no longer ever have to depend on winning at poker to survive because its a hard life. and inflation is going up all the time wiping out the value of the bankroll. poker is slowly getting unbeatable due to the rake and the overseas problem of massive influx of them coming to the US to grind poker for a living. they infiltrate and fill up all the games in texas. 

you see many years ago i went to the Russian embassy in Houston and signed up with the KGB. and they know how much i support their country and their agenda in the Ukraine and how evil the US govt really is. especially our military which uses its influence to force homosexuality on countries that dont want it, or we deny them military aid. 

and ive been getting a lot of money from them for the social media work i do for them in the US. 

and i told them of my citizenship and my ID issues and they told me not to worry about it and whenever im ready they had a job for me in Russia and will fly me privately to Russia and make me up a new identity with documents i can use to live there. 

commuism, as practiced by the early apostles in the first century takes care of those who cannot help themselves but most countries by punishing christians under communism, ruined it by kicking out God. with Putin as our leader we have now returned God to his rightful place in government. 

i wanted communism for me and Ray, each of us working off the same bankroll, buying in much deeper than 100 and splitting up the proceeds its the only way to make money at poker but Ray didnt want that he wanted to keep it seperate and all he cared about was his 4000 or 5000 he ran it up to and not risking more than 100 or so a day at it and when he lost he would get livid at me and treat me like an abused spouse. 

the goverment has ruined it by forcing those who get assistance in the US to never keep more than 2k in the bank. if u are as badly mentally disabled as me u should get it for life even if u have a million in the bank or in bitcoin because ill never be able to drive. no one should have to prove they are penniless with no income to qualify for help if they really need it. this is why ive never tried to get ssi. 

so i called my contact in the KGB, and got permission to go live in Russia and they are flying me first to alaska privately, and then into a place in siberia called Omsk. supposedly they have a small community of US citizens there who left the US to escape the wokeness of the biden administration. thats when i left the hotel before Ray came home and took me stuff to go meet the guy whose flying me to Russia. i will not have to go thru US customs because its all being done behind the scenes. its a pretty short flight. 

with a job theyll have for me working in social media, at least ill never have to play poker for my only income again and have to stress over the money. because that will cause people to flip out mentally very bad if theyre constantly not winning. i never thought id see the day i would lose 10k a month in PLO regularly. and its only because games in places like texas, vegas and florida are filling up with nothing but cheaters buying in deep to have their buddy raise their hand for them so they can reraise. 

in a way im kind of hurt and disappointed how things turned out with Ray making it so clear and so bluntly how my friendship meant nothing to him and how he didnt want it anymore. but at least ive got a new life to look forward to. my supervisor in the KGB told me if i did a good job recruiting more Americans to join the cause he would have the government supply me with a wife. 

@trafficbrokerx is not a man of his word

 well i may have not won today. i finally lost after recovering a small portion of the previous months monster loss the last few weeks, (had brought the last 33k back to over 37k). but then today, i ended up losing $402, and at one point, i was up over $250 for the day. I shouldve hit and ran, but i got too greedy and wanted to make at least $300 before i hit and ran. 

Im sure many of u, can identify with that feeling, (not wanting to hit and run with such a small profit). 

i lost over $200 of it on the VBJ machine, and the only reason i dont lose more on it like i did at the big easy is not only because my roll is much smaller, there is only 1 machine here and its hardly ever empty to play multiple spots. even at 3am there are people on it. so its not like Calder or the Big easy where there are many machines. Plus i started only bringing like $500-900 with me so i dont ever have too much cash on me. no more trips to the casino with $2000-3000 in my pocket. that was the reason i was having so many huge losses when i first got to florida. 

i was actually up $133 on a machine once. it has oriental symbols and has lamps that will bring up dancing pigs once u hit them. the blue must hit by 40, the green by 60 and the red by 100 if i remember right. i dont know the correct numbers, but i saw the blue on 22, and it was on the minimum bet and i just wanted to play something. i got lucky to make near that much on it, it hit really early on. 

i still have only played $1-3 NL. i did not play PLO since Ray left the area for ohio, and i didnt play the $2-5 nl when it went the other day either, which it rarely does. i will play the 1-2 while im waiting for a 1-3 seat. but the high drop here makes it difficult. ($4 jackpot drop and $1 rake at $10).

and unlike many cardrooms it isnt no flop no drop here. they still take.

@TrafficbrokerX on twitter who has known me for over 25 years and to my knowledge ive never met in person, (but who i think could be Mark Ortega from 2 plus 2 and neverbeg) gave me his word the other day he would be there tonight to pay me $208 for a twitter spaces interview, along with showing me how to take the screenshot on my phone for that $11 deposit they never would accept my attempts at the screenshot and also scan my ID on my phone for me so i could sign up with Kraken and Gemini to buy and sell xrp without going thru an exchange site in my Coinimi wallet, is NOT A MAN OF HIS word. Mark Ortega had a weird obsession with me for years and wanted to always interview and write about me too. Kind of like Herbie and Claudia who have long since disappeared.

he never showed up so i missed out on that, and lost a fortune by staying in the other game way too long, down to 4 handed against some really good players, Saul, and one other guy i first thought was a donkey. Saul is the guy wearing the mask and i pray to God he isnt the masked AP who scammed me last year. But he doesnt seem knowledgeable about games other than poker, so it cant be him. 

well i may not have any money tonight but i made sure that traffic broker x wont either. i sent a DM to all of his followers on twitter, explaining to them that he isnt a man of his word, and he is heavily into affailiate marketing, and i let them all know he is likely not trustworthy and hopefully it will cost him $20,800 since i missed out on $208. 

what the hell is a twitter spaces anyway? anyone ever done it? is it easy or a lot of tech knowhow is needed just like u need to take a screenshot?