Ok, now what do i do?

 Its a good thing ive won 26 of the last 28 days here in san antonio because Joe Bidens inflation is getting very bad, and will get much worse once food and gas shortages start happening this winter. its awful how i destroyed my 45k roll between vegas and florida, because it would help so much if i prepaid a shit ton of food and housing costs upfront while its still somewhat less. at least here in texas we can still survive without needing to be vaccinnated to gamble. Biden isnt shipping us off in boxcars to camps just yet like Australia is planning to do if u are unvaccinnated. 

after paying my rent on sept 29, i was down to only $19,300 and im happy to say that after tonights $302 poker win, im now at $24,000. reducing expenses is exceedingly tough when u dont have a friends house to live at whose got a car. i think putting in more hours, so i could win 6k a month instead of 4 to 4.5k a month would be far easier than trying to lower costs of living. increasing your income is always easier.

if i were someone who wouldve invested money wisely when i was young, and didnt have a gambling problem when i play anything other than poker, i couldve stored up a lot of bitcoin, but i have none any bitcoin i ever bought was deposited online and lost. on video blackjack online or at poker.

ive always wondered why i cannot win online and yet im a good enough player to make over 60k a year buying in $100 at $1-2 NL and PLO. the only logical reason that makes any sense is widespread and massive cheating online. others dont see it they just think its bad players getting lucky. 

id rather live out in the middle of nowhere in a dilapidated house id buy for 15k, with a lot of badly needed repairs in a no crime area where no one else lives and never pay rent again, and make only 25k a year online than 50-75k live cash games in texas. would be less stressful without any bills, but its impossible to win unless u play live. this is why i fear vaccine mandates. 

the only reason i can beat live games is because i dont ever sit with more than $100 unless im stuck first. if Ray wouldve done this too, he wouldnt be at home moping refusing to talk because hes got no money to go play. and yet he had $5200. 

im not even sure ill get last months sales tax refunded if i dont renew my hotel and i can renew it for as low as $1344 this month which is a lot less than the $1590 plus tax i paid last month for $1850 total. and its such a horrible pain the ass to move since i sleep about 8am to 6pm im much better off just knocking my roll down a bunch of money upfront again, and paying to stay where i am. 

i did look around online at Austin too and i seen a good deal on a place to live within a few blocks of the Palms poker room and quite a bit further from other rooms, but i cant really go anywhere until i settle this sales tax thing that i paid last month. every time id move id owe it all over again and thats a lot of money. 

i even wrote a place on craigslist which offered to rent to me without needing proof of income as long as i passed a background check and a no prior evictions check. the no prior evictions wouldnt be an issue but i worry that my felony might present questions even though i was only 19 and had no idea what i was saying would get me in any legal trouble at all. i told the landlord in the email about my autism. 

im almost out of food again too, and its unbelievable the grocery bills, and all the stores quit selling the 6 packs of oncor veal patties quite a few months ago. only the 6 packs of steaks are sold by oncor foods now. 

i wish i had a friend in san antonio with a car, i get sick of playing in the same room all the time because its a $7.45 uber ride and a couple of other places id like to play are a $20 uber ride and a $33 uber ride. i dont see Ray ever having any money unless he bans himself out of hollywood once and for all like he promised he would but he doesnt want to be banned out of other ohio rooms and some other places around the country the state includes in all bans signed voluntarily. 

i dont see Vince moving here either and getting rid of the bitch and lightning is far too selfish to let me live with him and drive me back and forth to the poker room with him every night, so that leaves Phoenix out too. 

a person only making 20k a year can save money up much easier if he lives with friend without any expenses and plays poker with friends every night. young college age guys have it made and i was never a part of that at that age. a lot easier than i can making 55k a spending 50k on the cost of living

so its not your poker abilities that determine your success at poker. its your personal relationships and if u can avoid casino games. well ive got that half fixed now. ill never visit a casino again in my life. 

even with that $4250 in free bets, i never left texas all month long to go to the casino that offered me a $250 free bet 4 times a week for the month of october. couldnt risk losing my discipline there. 

even if i couldve got out of this motel and into a long term place it mightve been far less safe and it was in a mobile home park so even if id been approved it was near the wrong poker room. but i do wish i had long term housing id never have to move out of for under 1000 a month. 

i know most of u have never played in an all bomb pot game every single hand but it does make it a lot easier to win consistently if u are tight enough and know what u are doing. u should be willing to try new things or you never grow at poker. lightning doesnt and thats why he dont grow. 

even though certain players are assholes and want to see me lose and go broke at my table, there are some nice people higher up in charge of the place and some guys are friendly so i guess im not too unhappy. its hard to be when i am winning so many days in a row. plus i got 2 royal flushes this week. and a $25 bonus on each one. 

ive asked them to raise the bomb pot $1 each hand, from $2, to $3, etc, and theyre all nits so they refuse. i just want to see how high it can go and if id survive once the bomb pots got to be $125 a hand. can we privately arrange this as a home game maybe? will Bart do it who lives up the road in Austin? all they will do is change it to a flat 5 or 10 and thats not what i want but a bomb pot going up 1 dollar every single hand. 

just like how i played at the peppermill in reno when id straddle for $4 and then increase it $1 every hand til i scooped a big pot once the straddle grew to $19. here the min straddle is 4 and the max straddle is 10. so its not worth doing at all. 

an awful future is in store for us

 i've thought of a pretty strange way to save the USA, and its not something many of u would accept, because it involves Pelosi becoming president. But its better than Biden being in office, because he is so senile and incompetent a nuclear war could break out at any moment. and its also far better than Harris becoming president, she doesnt even have any support in her own party to win a single delegate. polls show Biden has only a 38% approval rating now and a 53% disapproval rating. and a 67% disapproval rating on his handling of the southern border. 

all we need to do is to impeach Biden, then Harris, and that would put Pelosi into office as president. now shes a democrat, and supports a lot of things i dont approve of, but being an old style Clinton democrat, instead of the new style Ilhan Omar democrat, shes far less dangerous. Pelosi did say once well over a year ago the government had no right to enforce vaccine mandates, although i dont know how she feels about the issue today. 

If Biden continues in office, thats pretty much will cause genicide of a lot of the population among those who are the poorest. as food prices and housing costs skyrocket to unbelievable levels. im down to only $20,600 again after 2 horrible nights of poker. and before then i was winning here in san antonio every day. 

my 20k will soon not afford a months rent and food. i never spent over 200 a month on food because id always buy the cheapest brands at walmart, but now, at Heb and walmart i know im spending well over 300 a month on food because the prices have went up so bad. inflation is well over 100 percent a year and the government wont admit it and hides the real figures. when the cost of gas goes up because of less drilling of oil and less production of oil because pipelines are shut down, the cost of everything skyrockets and it doesnt have any effect on most americans lives but it sure hurts the poorest of us.

now i know after about 6 hours i cant play worth a shit anymore now that im old. but 2 days in a row of $600+ losing sessions? today i spent $60 in time (texas way of taking a rake since a rake isnt legal) and i was already stuck $219 plus time and door fees when i quit the $1-2 NL table to play the $2 bomb pot game. And i still took beats in the all bomb pot game, and many hours later switched to $5 bomb pot and i made the error of agreeing to switch it to 5 cards, which is how i lost the rest of the money. for a tight player who doesnt want to get rivered near as high a percent of the time, 4 cards is better. 

on one big hand, early on, in the $2 bomb pot game, i think i had the nut straight on one board, and Q9 on the other board for 2 pair and the other 2 cards on that board were a 2 and a 3. for the first time i thought i had a good shot of scooping both boards and it was for a decent pot. and against the loose player whose a dealer who i found out was a good guy. story to come. he had been wining several pots more than average. i dont remember the exact cards that consisted of the straight on the other board but i remember it being the nuts on the turn. river is dealt and im afraid to look, so im covering up the board and staring straight ahead with my hands over my eyes and its heads up. hes pretty drunk so i call for a clock because he is taking forever to act and im worried about a bad card coming to pair the board and ruin my nut hand. 

floor comes and starts the clock and he continues to talk and all of a sudden he turns his hand over and just like Vince always says when hes drunk is that he loves me and who loves you and i see he rivered the nut flush on one board, and a boat on the other board. and of course i fold. so he did me a favor by not betting. then he does another thing which surprises me. i am down to only about $60 because i lost quite a bit on that pot before the river, and he buys me $40 worth of time, which is when i suddenly notice what a great guy he is. never before has anyone ever done that for me. certainly not in this cardroom. 

later on he bought the whole table an extra hour of time too to keep everyone playing he said he didnt want no one to leave. and this one asian girl he kept giving a green chip so often it was weird, seeing the other asian woman he never gave one too who was just as good looking. But maybe he heard her mention making 300k in the stock market in 1 day and showing it on her phone to her friends. i just figured it was alysia changs friend named debbie she went to detroit once to see at the casino because she was asian. maybe its a different debbie. he eventually quit broke and got into some dispute with the floorman and pissed him off. But hey he was a good guy, saved me $50 in time. once for $40 once more for $10 when he paid time for the entire table. Last time someone helped me out that much was outside resorts poker room in vegas when a guy whod been playing at my table walked up and handed me $100 and told me to run it up right as vince was coming up to get me in his car and that shocked me too 

other dealers here certainly wouldnt done that for me. one time the guy told the dealer to split the pot in half even though he won 3 fourths of the pot, but the dealer didnt he gave me only 1 quarter and since he was drunk and had done me other favors i didnt bother to say anything. i dont think he even knew the dealer gave him 3 fourths. he knew he was supposed to win 3 quarters but he said to give me half the pot anyway. and just like Vince, kept saying who loves you. 

i am also missing out on a really good casino offer i cant use because i paid a month for a motel in san antonio good thru oct 29th. a certain casino in a different state offered me $250 free bet about 17 different times in the month of october, if i was only there to use it. almost considered flying there and back to use a few of them over 4 days, but the airfare is too much. i have never got an offer that good from a casino ever, and never will again. but its for blackjack table play, not slot play, so no, another person cant claim it. Bill potts also got an offer for $390 a week this month at a casino he cant visit right now either. hes working really hard in virginia this month to make sure the democrats lose the next election and the candidate supported both by the libertarian party and the republican party gets in. the name of the candidate is Mike Cherry.