Yeah it was nice when i didnt get tired so quickly and just want to go home. and its harder to not be able to quit because i havent earned at least 200 for the night yet. and it was nice pre covid when living expenses werent close to 4k a month
i remember when i lived for next to nothing and when my roll was often under $2000, sometimes $1000 in the very early days. such as when i found an apt for $230 a month in butte montana and i was mostly playing online a lot.
But i was young, dumb and stupid in those days and no matter how little money i had i could never grow my money. even though at that time, no one knew what a HUD or a solver was and there were still casual losing players online since the US govt hadnt banned it yet. Fuck that war criminal George Bush. it was because every day i would win about $25-30 and end up giving $10 or so of it to Britni or Lorna who i was talking to online all day long in chat and yahoo messenger while i play poker. anyone remember yahoo messenger?
when u are that young, having a woman is the most important thing in your life. but when u get to be over 50 and can no longer have sex due to your old age, and have to piss every 45 minutes an extremely tiny amount, u then start thinking, im sick of being homeless, having no credit, owning no assets and then u get to the point where u only care about money and nothing but money.
had i spent more hours stockpiling money at that age like Bill Potts did (minus whatever he likely donates to those supporting Hamas) i would have a roll of 260k instead of 26k.
i am going to miss Dallas when i leave to go to Louisiana to try and replace an ID before it expires in August. there isnt many places around the USA that have 9 tables going at 630am. never have to worry about the last 1-2 NL game of the night breaking up here. Never have to worry about acting first if the button straddles because only the UTG can straddle here. where else can i martingale and buyin for only $60 when i first sit down?
but i cannot understand why im not winning more here. im still 6k less well off than when i left vegas for texas. most of the loss was on the day i lost 3000 the day i lost 2100 the day i lost 860 and the cost of living and not from poker but still, in houston, san antonio and el paso i not only paid all those expenses i kept growing the roll too. at least ill never go broke 60 at a time in NL. thats all ive played for over 2 weeks. im scared to play in a PLO game unless i can buyin for 100 and none exist in dallas.
also i can not remember for sure where i last had or seen my birth certificate from canada. either ray or vince lost it and i dont know who but neither guy can find it so thats another problem.
since i sleep during the day they never had a chance to replace the ac and deep clean the carpet and i hope they arent mad i didnt complain and tell them how wet the floor is near the edge of the bed until i move out in 2-5 more days. but i never ever wake up til much later than 5pm and i certainly dont want people in my room when im undressed lying in bed 3-5 hours trying to fall asleep.
its great when u can keep going back to sleep 10 hours everyday. one thing ruining many peoples health is they dont get enough sleep. only thing that ruins mine is i never see a doctor so who knows what health issues could be getting way too severe to be fixable.
this blog is way too short but its long overdue and been half finished for over 10 days, so im just going to go ahead and hit publish
