still looking forward to flying out of Louisiana to florida or texas anytime after august 8

 i had been slowly coming back a little bit from all the money ive used to live on and blew in omaha games in shreveport, both PL high and 10-20 fixed limit high low with a full kill. i think i left dallas with $27,900 and i was back to $25,300 at the beginning of today, after being down all the way to 22,800

and as always i was trying to get up at least 200-300 before i had to go to walmart before the store closed and was slowly in the game for a little bit more as time went on from the $100 id originally sat with a few hours earlier. at the final hand before i quit i was in the game for $527.

i had one hand in which i had AJ, and i think made a small raise preflop. i hate to raise it big unless i know ill have the button postflop. like from $3 to $7 or $10 if i even raised it at all. i cant remember. 

flop comes AK6 and the blind (either big or small) bet and i hate it when a guy bets from early position into multiple players because it makes me feel like hes got a strong hand and im afraid to raise. so i only call. turn comes A but it puts a possible flush on the board, so i still only call. river comes 8 and he bets a bit more and i still call, and find out i let him get there with A8. granted i dont think he wouldve folded had i bet heavier early on. 

eventually im out of the hole, slightly ahead and just about to quit to go to walmart before they close, and i really hate the fact i cant just play as long as i want anymore and just go in the middle of the night, but lightnings BFF dr fauci destroyed that. i get dealt AK and raise it up preflop and the only 3 players are me and the guy on my immediate right and my immediate left. both older black guys with a lot of chips. 

flop comes K95 and the first player checks. i bet $40 and seat 9 raises to $100. seat 7 folds. what am i supposed to do here? a short stack id just commit myself but i had about $500 on me. 

there were 2 clubs on the board and i called in case he had the draw. turn comes 2 spades a total blank. and this time he only bet $75 when i checked and i thought for sure i was ahead (turned out i was). i again only called. (and after i left pissed off i heard the one guy saying when i was at the window, why didnt i just raise him allin on the turn if i thought i was good). 

river comes J. i checked in the dark, as if i was the one on the draw, and he bets $200 and its not a club. i called and he has KJ for the 3 outer. yeah thats why i left unhappy. so i was stuck way more at the very end, plus about $200 in bitcoin id lost online earlier on my phone playing BJ. 

that was twice that almost the same thing happened to me today both for big pots. and i dont think either of those 2 guys wouldve folded had i went allin on the turn. thats just running terribly bad.

i had a weird dream last night in which Trump came running up to me and said he needed my help and i went to follow him and i saw a station wagon in which a bunch of women without shirts on were hanging out in and in the middle of the station wagon was Bart Hanson lying on a bed saying to come in and lie down and then he said "you're the rock star poker player, you're the greatest" and earlier in the dream i was playing video poker out of a newspaper vending machine and i came back and someone was playing my machine. and someone handed me $300 in cash as compensation but instead of money it was all checks made out in my mothers name. and as im walking up to her front door there is a huge refridgerator for sale outside with tons of doors and is about the size of many tables. 

got my ID resolved and im in an airbnb for a month in Louisiana

 well my money is still decreasing rapidly, 23700 left of the 27900 i had when i left Dallas, but at least my ID is good now til 2030, though i wont be able to fly as of May 2025. 

i had some bad luck when i first got here. lost $415 playing poker the first night i was here, $200 for the Uber to get here from Dallas, and then i played the bags of Jewels machine a little bit too early after the game broke. the bags were at 4,4,4 and i know i should only play when at 5,5,4 or 5,5,3. but i thought the only way u make any money is if both the red bag and another bag hits at the same time. 

i lost about $500 on that machine that night. and the red bag never hit. only the green bag once, and the purple bag twice. 

at one point all 3 bags were lit, but when i left the game the red bag still hadnt burst. 

and then the following day i lost about $900 at poker. some in NL some in 10-20 hilow. and of course i was paying for a motel in bossier about $160-180 every 2 nights on priceline. thats why i wanted to be out of there and if i didnt get back to texas, to be in my own place with a kitchen and a washer and dryer. 

all of the flights to texas arent cheap they were all $279-400 and i dont feel safe riding a greyhound bus and i looked for non greyhound buses leaving shreveport but all they have is greyhound. they did have a few flights cheap to vegas, or to other places if u took the express option thru priceline where u dont see which airline and time the flight leaves or where it transfers u at til after u book the ticket and its non refundable. 

u can even fly to fort lauderdale for 177 if u go that option where u cant see the flight til its too late. 

i dont like the fact theres completely dead mornings with no games here (mon and tues) because it had plenty of tables and players all last week wednesday thru sunday. id wake up at 7am and find the game still going. and i also dont like the fact i cant run up a big stack then hit and run and go 5 miles down the road and buy back in for 60 like i could in dallas at the 2nd poker room. 

but here its 100 min. and often only 1 casino poker room open. they need to figure out a way to get players in early on tuesdays so its not so dead here. i bet the dealers dont like sitting here doing nothing that morning either and hate to be the one called in to wait for a game to go. 

i would suggest offering the players $50 an hour to start the game. and pay it to everyone at the table instead of 1 person. that would get at least 4 to come in and start it up. and keep giving them $50 an hour til the game fills up as it gets closer to the afternoon. 

if the house claims they cant afford it, just take it from the checks of the nighttime dealers on the busy times and use this money to fund it. its not fair to the dealers who work tues morning that those dealers on swing shift on weekends earn more. 

also my toenails really need cut again there are starting to get long it was a long time ago Vince took me to the foot doctor in vegas. the one that doesnt cut right is back out to not being able to cut. 

ive taken some horrible beats in here and actually have won over $700 on blackjack. so im shocked im as broke as i am. Uber costs a lot more here than in TX and the cost of food and general living expenses under Biden is just horrible. i went over 5 hours without winning a single pot in 10-20 hilo and left without finding out how many more hours it would have been. and here the bomb pots u get 3 cards and 2 boards in the NL game. taken some horrible beats in that game too but its too much work to type them out here now.